#will i go even more in depth in the future

[northopalshore]

My thoughts on mainstream manifestation culture:

the tunnel vision effect

𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋ Is it counter intuitive for someone spiritual to confess that they don't believe in manifestation? I consider myself a spiritual person, but rather than manifestation, I've always believe in the miracle of fate. I find that the more I want something, the less it is drawn to me due to that underlying sense of desperation that usually comes with the desire to manifest in the first place.

With faith in fate, it's the contentment, the part of the soul that is at ease & is able to extinguish that desire that is able to open up your eyes to the right path. Even as I am blindfolded, I feel secure. It's through my personal experience that I believe to some degree, ignorance is truthfully bliss.

I believe in a higher self. A version of me that already knows what's to come. She tells me nothing when I ask, and reveals only when I need to see. "Just go where fate takes you".

I know it may sound like you're living life aimlessly, but it's truthfully not. This is what allows me to be aware of every opportunity that presents itself which you may have been too fixated on what you want to happen to have noticed it otherwise.

Everything beautiful, and ugly & in between. Or perhaps, even the true path or answer you've been subconsciously searching for.

I know someone, somewhere in the far future may discuss this topic as well with greater depth than I. I'm not saying it out of a whim either, it's just my personal opinion regarding the whole manifestation culture that's been going (or rather, has been) quite mainstream. All my life, deep down, this is a core part of my constitution.

Have faith in fate, let go & things seemingly move faster.

Of course, in the end of the day it's to each their own. If it helps you, then by all means do your thing. This is just my truthful opinion about it.

₊ ˚ ⊹ ࣭ ⭑ . ₊ ⊹ .₊๋‧₊ ˚ ⊹ ࣭ ⭑ . ₊ ⊹ .₊๋‧₊ ˚ ⊹ ࣭ ⭑ . ₊ ⊹ .₊๋‧₊ ˚ ⊹ ࣭ ⭑ ⊹ .₊๋‧₊ ˚ ⊹ ࣭ ⭑

P/s: In my ascendant persona chart, Capricorn is governing my 9th house. There's also Mars°15 Gemini and Chiron (°0) in Aquarius here, so believe me when I say it comes from experience & critical judgement.

[lisziztaken]

In universe, my two main issues with this newest take on their dynamic:

There is a really in-depth (however rationally sound is whole other issue but I think effort and focus is the point here) discussion about Bruce’s motives and thoughts regarding each of the steps he takes in how/why he saves Joker’s life. You see the negotiation. And you sort of see more of how he looks at Joker and the impact of the injuries and the actions etc. Which is in an insanely stark clear contrast to when it comes to Jason. I’m not saying that we should be reliving the death of the second Robin every other Wednesday and by god I do not want to, but since this is the problem we are tackling and the storyline we are choosing to (re)visit, then it would feel pretty hollow for Bruce just go “you know it’s my fault and just take it out on me and call it a day”. It doesn’t make sense that there is so much less struggle in the decision to beat up/brutalize/shoot Jason, that all of it could be compressed into two pages.

DEAR LORD WHAT THE HELL “YOU KNOW IT’S MY FAULT I FAILED YOU I SHOULD HAVE PROTECTED YOU YOU WERE JUST A KID” sandwiched right in between shooting him in the face?? And throwing him into a car???? Why??? I’m not taking the route of “what kind of message are you trying to send with the gaslighting etc”, and the morality of the whole situation aside, just, the actions and the dialogues make no sense literally. Just looking at these panels now, it’s pissing me off. You have Bruce taking the first shot (in defense of the Joker. Again very interesting that we always prefer non-lethal/deescalating tactics but not when Jason is involved because manufactured conflicts but whatever), then the physical conformation, then AMIDST that he tried to change tactic, and Jason rejects the sudden change of course and physical comfort, thus the panels pin him as the aggregator, paving the way for another “Bruce tries his best Jason impulsively lashes out and refuses to look past something”. Once again at this point it’s not even about the direction of the story anymore, it’s how you choose to tell it. Like gaslight the character but own it??? If you want Bruce saying it’s all his fault to feel like a moment of truth and vulnerability and redemption, or even a tactic to solve the problem, then the storyboard should serve that purpose. At the moment it feels immensely like he’s trying to absolve his past and present and future actions by saying words and then not doing anything about it, and it’s hard to root for that. It’s hard to side with it. I knew what I was in for when I saw the cover yet I bought the comic 😭😭😭😭😭

Jason is the poster child for the child soldier problem of Robin but that doesn’t mean Jason himself believes that in-universe.

Really this feels like a cope on Bruce’s part. To be at fault for something is painful but it comes with the benefit of being able to fix or at least avoid the problem next time.

DC will never bother write Jason with enough depth to explore the idea but I really think he would never ever begrudge Bruce for making him Robin. Robin was everything to him. Hope, family, opportunity, agency. Yes it was dangerous but there’s a difference between facing danger for a purpose and dealing with it just to survive. Look at difference between Jason before Robin and afterwards. It’s truly a demonstration of how the effectiveness of nobility is a luxury the desperate are denied.

[bikananjarrus]

i think my biggest critique of the first arc was the ferrix crew storyline. i didn't really feel like we spent enough time with them, and on a personal level with the characters (namely bix, brasso, and wilmon, less about cassian in this case), where they are now, how they feel about that, i felt like it was missing something.

(quick disclaimer that i've only watched the episodes once; my opinion might change upon a rewatch and upon seeing the rest of the season, but for now this is my first-viewing takeaway.)

it felt a bit like the writing sacrificed getting deep and personal with our ferrixians in exchange for pushing the discussion about them being illegal workers/immigration/etc. we've obviously got some very real world parallels with the discussions around illegal workers, and important discussions at that, but it would have been nice to hear from bix, brasso, and wilmon how they feel about being forced to leave ferrix. what does it mean for them to live somewhere that's not their home? it would've been nice to hear them mention jezzi or any of the other ferrixians, and how they wish they could speak with someone back home to see how things are. i think the serious topic of immigration and illegal work would've hit harder if we'd gotten to see first-hand how these displaced characters are feeling.

i also wish we had gotten to see the three of them (four counting bee) interact with each other more, especially in the lead up to brasso's death. again, i felt like we sacrificed seeing the bond that bix, brasso, and wil have with each other to make room for them interacting with new characters, namely talia and beela. (nothing against her) but i didn't really see the point to talia's character, other than having a friendly face to leave bee with at the end (even though they could've left him with beela). this show has done an incredible job in the past at making me care about a brand new character in about 2 minutes flat (see even the beginning of 2x01 with niya's introduction), but i don't think that thought and care was put into talia. i didn't get a sense of her personality at all, and it felt like she was just there to be there. they could've still had her there, and just made her friends with the ferrix crew. but i didn't really get much out of her and brasso being an item. (i actually thought brasso's friendship with kellen had more depth, so we could've just focused on that instead, if they wanted to establish that the ferrix crew had a foothold in the community.)

beela had only a bit more personality, but not much. i think the connection between her and wilmon could have been more interesting, and could have had more depth, even in a short amount of time. if we'd gotten a better chance to understand why wilmon is drawn to her and her to him, it would've made him running off to her when they're getting ready to leave more understandable. and then the consequences of him leaving to see her, causing brasso to go after him and get caught in the stormtroopers' crossfire, would have hit harder.

and as for brasso's death, i predicted that he would die in this first arc, so that wasn't surprising. but it was a real blink and you miss it death, which felt a little odd. (*i* missed it anyway; idk about anyone else, but i didn't even realize he'd gotten hit until cassian saw his speeder crashed and smoking.) we've had very quick sudden deaths before (look at most of the aldhani crew) but this felt so distant compared to how beloved brasso is. and considering that we didn't get that much screen time with him before it happened, i really was just left wishing for something more from the whole ferrix crew's storyline before they lost brasso.

i hope we get to talk about brasso and ferrix more in future episodes, since bix and wilmon (and cassian, of course) are still around. but it does make me a little nervous about these year-long time jumps.

[sunriseinorbit]

i am fully aware that i'm lowkey making shit up but i truly think there's a strong parallel to be found between godot and mia and phoenix and trucy when it comes to how tragedy can paradoxically bring you into the orbit of someone you love (romantic or familial) enough to completely change your priorities and the entire course of your life.

the fawles trial ends in loss in the form of fawles' death. so does the gramarye trial, in the form of zak's disappearance and phoenix's disbarment. the ramifications of both events haunt everyone involved for several years afterward as the case remains technically unsolved, and both diego and phoenix end up performing their own unofficial investigations behind the scenes to figure out what really happened. but conversely and crucially, both trials also mark major turning points in their relationships with mia and trucy respectively.

diego and mia already know each other and have worked together prior to the fawles trial, but i think the trial is the first time diego sees the full depth of who she is. he sees her kindness and her conviction and especially how the two combine into her unwavering belief in fawles' innocence until the very end, and he also sees the fallout firsthand when she blames herself for fawles' death, which has just as much of an impact on diego as the death itself. (basically what i'm saying is that you can take the headcanon that this is when he really falls in love with her out of my cold dead hands. anyway!)

meanwhile, phoenix meets trucy for the first time before the gramarye trial, and later that same day, she gives him the forged diary page that destroys his career. in a strictly literal sense, she is his undoing. (to be clear, i am not blaming her for this at all. she was 8.) but despite that, it's trucy who has nowhere to go when court is adjourned. zak told her that she could trust phoenix, and so she does, and now there's a little girl standing in phoenix's office when everything else is gone.

and at this point, both of these men are in vastly different situations, but the choices they make are at their core very similar: diego chooses to work to bring dahlia to justice in no small part for mia's sake, and phoenix chooses to take trucy in. and for better and for worse, in ways both healthy and VERY much not, they center themselves around that choice from then on. everything diego does once he comes back as godot is, at least as he justifies it to himself, is in mia's name. and as phoenix himself says, "happy, smiling trucy, she was my light"—taking care of her is what stops him from spiraling more than he already has.

neither of them knew what the future would hold. diego couldn't have predicted that he would get poisoned, and he didn't know just how deep the fey family issues truly ran. phoenix didn't know if zak would come back for trucy, or if he'd ever be able to practice law again. but while they both have their regrets about how things turned out, i think that if they were offered the choice to love mia and trucy all over again, even if the events that led up to it and happened because of it would play out exactly the same way and they'd end up in the exact same place, they would both still take it.

[strandnreyes]

In regards to Carlos not really being present as a 'papa bro' in law, I don't know if it's about writing him as a poc who is absentee, so much as just going with what the show actually told us. Many people I've seen still say it was forced on him, that he didn't really want it, and I guess the show told us he had a change of heart, but it would have been nice to actually see that convo between him and TK so we get more in depth Carlos' feelings on it, because many people still don't buy it. Either way, now he's the only one working, whereas TK is the stay at home who will be spending more time with Jonah. Even in that last scene of them Carlos says he was on a stakeout until 3am and then they woke him up to eat breakfast before he goes back in to work right away. And TK talks about what him and Jonah will be doing that day and that it's the life he signed up for (not they). I think people maybe took it at face value and just assume that this is a normal thing and will be in the future.

After Carlos wraps up his dad’s case, we see him at Marjan’s wedding, building furniture with TK, meeting with the social worker, going to the firehouse for the ceremony. None of that depicts a man who is constantly at work.

We see him with Jonah in his lap at the ceremony, hosting him in the air on the couch, cuddling him and kissing his head. All the while, Jonah has been in their lives for 5 minutes of canon (aka not a lot of time to see much more). None of that depicts a man who wouldn’t be there for Jonah.

The narrative that he’s always missing nights at home with his family and TK is Jonah’s primary caregiver with Carlos just tagging along as TK’s spouse is not based on canon, but prejudice.

[mostly-marvel-musings]

Prologue - Terms and Conditions

A/N: Here we go! I’m obsessed with these two already. Let me know if you are too 🤍

Pairing: Tony Stark x Female Reader

Warning: 18+ slow burn.

Terms and Conditions

The conference room was sharp and sterile, walls lined with glass and egos, and the temperature dialed to “passive aggressive.” The tension wasn’t hostile—it was rehearsed, corporate, polite. Like everyone had agreed to wear their best masks.

Tony Stark lounged like this was a poker night, not a merger signing. Armani suit, sunglasses pushed back into gravity-defying hair, one leg crossed lazily over the other. He twirled his pen as though he was about to sign away someone else’s soul.

You sat across from him, upright and composed, your Novastem folder neatly aligned with the packet of legal documents. The Stark Industries logo gleamed beside your own, as if the two had already shaken hands and agreed to tolerate each other.

A senior board member from Stark Industries cleared his throat and began, “Given the shifting focus toward sustainable innovation, this merger allows us to diversify our portfolio in a way that speaks to future markets. Novastem’s work with nanogrid energy systems has potential applications across Stark’s existing infrastructure…”

Tony’s eyebrows lifted slightly. He caught your eye across the table and mouthed: Nanogrid?

You gave a tight smile, then mouthed back: Look it up.

Another advisor chimed in, “And of course, with Miss Y/L/N’s engineering background and Stark’s R&D capacity—”

“—We’re practically a Hallmark success story,” Tony muttered under his breath. You shot him a look. He responded with an exaggerated shrug and the most unbothered wink known to man.

The rest of the meeting blurred into metrics, projections, and polite nods. You signed your part with efficient precision. Stark, predictably, added a dramatic flourish.

And just like that, you were legally bound to a man who probably hadn’t read a single bullet point on the proposal.

He leaned in, voice just above a whisper, “You realize this is the part where I say something charming and you pretend not to be impressed.”

“I’m not pretending,” you replied smoothly, rising to your feet.

.

Later that evening, the penthouse was exactly what you imagined a Stark-level habitat to be, impossibly sleek, a little cold, and humming with invisible tech you could feel in your bones. It was less home, more showroom, like even the walls were trying to impress someone.

Tony hadn’t bothered with the grand tour. He pointed vaguely toward the hall with a distracted, “Guest room’s the third on the left,” and vanished into the depths of wherever billionaires vanish after signing their souls away on legal paper.

You toed off your shoes by the door and wandered further in, suitcase trailing behind you with a whisper.

The place was… vast. And quiet.

Not eerily so—more like the quiet that wraps around you in the moments between chapters. The air felt charged in that too-clean, too-perfect way, like someone had pressed pause on life and forgot to hit play again.

You passed the living room—chrome and marble and enough screens to surveil a small country—and caught your reflection in the floor-to-ceiling windows. You looked tired. Or maybe just… transitioning. From who you were this morning, to whoever this was supposed to be now.

You didn’t mean to explore, but your feet led you through the space anyway. Past the kitchen that looked like no one had ever dared to cook in it. Through the hall where the lighting followed your movement, casting soft gold onto minimalist walls. Past rooms with closed doors you didn’t open.

And then, halfway through turning a corner, you froze.

A small sound barely audible, rustling behind one of the plants. Then the lightest little meow.

You blinked.

From behind a steel planter, a pair of eyes blinked back at you. Pale ginger and white, with the posture of a feline who had definitely been judging you this entire time.

“Oh!” you said, surprised. “Hello. You’re… cute. And very out of place.”

The cat tilted her head like she took offense to the ‘out of place’ part.

She sauntered forward with practiced confidence, tail in the air, and promptly began rubbing against your leg like you’d passed inspection.

You crouched slowly. “And you are…?”

There was no collar, but something about her aura screamed named and spoiled rotten.

A voice called distantly from the hallway—Tony’s.

“Try not to let her con you. She’s fluff with zero morals.”

You glanced up. “She yours?”

“She lets me live here, yeah.” A pause. “Dum-E.”

You blinked again. “You named your cat after your robot?”

Tony reappeared in the doorway, towel slung around his neck. He smirked. “Nah. I named my robot after my cat.”

.

A knock at the door startled you.

It cracked open slightly. “Hey,” said a familiar voice. Happy Hogan.

You blinked. “Happy?”

He stepped inside with a hesitant smile. “Thought I’d check in. You surviving the first night?”

“Barely,” you admitted.

Happy gave a small nod toward Dum-E, who was still curled smugly on your suitcase. “Careful. She once hissed at me for sneezing near her food.”

Tony’s voice called out from somewhere beyond the hall. “She was right to. That tuna was artisanal.”

Happy rolled his eyes. “He feeds her better than himself.”

You tried not to smile. Failed. “She’s already claimed me.”

“She does that,” Happy said fondly, then sobered a little. “You good? I know this wasn’t exactly the dream wedding.”

You looked around, then at the cat, then at the impossibly large penthouse.

“No. But I’ll manage.”

Happy nodded. “You’ve handled worse. You’ll handle this. And hey—if you ever need a real person to talk to… I’m around.”

He paused before adding with mock seriousness, “Just don’t feed the cat shrimp. It goes to her head.”

From down the hall, Tony’s voice again: “I told you, it was ONE time—”

You smiled—genuinely this time. “Thanks, Happy.”

.

You curled up in bed a few minutes later. Dum-E had relocated to the window, silhouetted in moonlight, tail twitching as she surveyed her new roommate.

You weren’t sure what tomorrow would bring.

But you knew one thing.

You were already becoming part of the chaos. And for now… that would do.

[qoldenskies]

I like to imagine that after some time ccDonnie gets really into training with his bō and in training in general. He's such a solution orientated person I feel like it would get really unbearable for him to feel like he's the weakest and defenseless - after all isn't all of this his fault for being so dense that he could not tell that something was oh so obviously wrong with his brothers and for being so weak that he ended up getting so physically hurt? So really this is something he needs to fix again. Focusing too much on his tech has made him a liability and bad at reading his brothers, so he tries to balance tech and training more.

So I imagine that as an adult Donnie is quite a scary aggressive fighter - softshell turtles are quite aggressive in nature after all, precisely because of their softness - and appears quite distant and cold to outsiders. You would have to know him for quite some while and be really attentive to notice that at heart he is far more gentle mannered and soft, but the most important people in his life already know that.

Also!! I love it when in tmnt whump writers use turtle behaviours as therapy - like swimming being therapeutic. Maybe ccDonnie would also really enjoy swimming and letting his mind rest after all this?

I really liked the animatic!!!! And can't wait for the last chapter of cc! Sending love

honestly this is something i could see! combat is going to be a hard thing for donnie to go back to in particular even without his brothers because he's kind of conditioned himself to panic and do little, curl up in a ball and steel himself. and mixed with the final attack i think he's just going to have problems getting back into the environment and mindset

but like, when he does? i could definitely see some overcompensating going on. donnie gettting vicious out of fear of being helpless again. being triggered and seeing red, falling back hard on the urge to fight back that DID save his life. it stopped leo from slitting his throat and held raph off, really. its still frenzied and panicked but there's an edge of uncharacteristic anger there. he'd otherwise normally be very precise and tactical in his combat, and i do think it'd be a skill he would put a lot of focus on.

im unsure about socially though. i could see him giving off that energy because he would be quiet for SURE, and he always looks on edge and nervous (which can be interpreted as "fuck off" body language lmao) but donnie is hyperaware of other people and he always will be going forward. when he actually opens his mouth he'll be very appeasing, at first at least. i do think he'll be really nervous around new people and it'll make it hard for him to find new connections, but he'll actually be one of the better ones with that. leo will be nasty because of paranoia for a long time.

(also omg yeah i am a little envious because i would LOVE to meditate underwater ... just go under there for ages and chill ... need to project this urge onto him it sounds so calming)

[asgardian--angels]

things I wish I could relive for the first time again:

that magical window where you finish a new piece of media, having watched/read it all by yourself with no fandom contact whatsoever, and you are just so happy about it, and full of interesting theories and takeaways, and just in love with it as a gorgeous piece of art.

because I swear to god as soon as you join the fandom for anything, you're bombarded with how you're supposed to view characters and their arcs, how you're supposed to morally and ethically judge the plot and the ways it apparently failed to present the right message, and if you don't you'll either be shunned for not sharing the popular headcanons or you'll be harassed for not criticizing the source material enough.

like how is it that the fans of a piece of media are also the ones being the most negative about it? If I like a show or a movie or a book, well, I liked it. That's kind of the point. I'm actually not here to tear it apart and talk about how it didn't live up to standards other people had! I enjoyed it for what it was, and forcing myself to find negative things to say about it doesn't actually bring me more enjoyment of it or reap any benefit to me. Fandom's a double-edged sword; you want to join a community to share your love for a piece of art, and the price you pay for a modicum of joy is a mountain of negativity. that's one main reason that I never engage with fandom until I'm completely done with a show, because if I was plugged into all of that commentary and discourse during the process, I'd be completely colored by how I'm expected to interpret everything this piece of art is presenting to me without being able to even form my own opinions.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

hello!! i just want to tell you that your art is so goddamn scrumptious, you are literally feeding my xmen brainrot and I find myself smiling when i see your art come across my feed. I love how you draw charles, pretty privilege and post (lets be fr he's serving every time)

i hope you always have fantastic brainrot and id kiss your blessed hands for giving us the gift of cherik and charles xavier, you are literally an icon

hope you have a great day ahead of you and more!! you deserve it !!

well i'ma absolutely have a wonderful mornin after readin this AWWWW thank you so so much !!!! i haven't been postin xmen long, so it's been really heartwarmin seein the warm reception to my work in the wonderful tags people have been leavin on my posts- and especially gettin to answer the lovely asks y'all've been sendin in (❁´ ▽ `❁) !! im glad people also like my goofy text posts and esp quotes from my brother he really has no right being so funny at the most random times

i hope to be xmen posting a while: ive got at least 60 years worth of stuff to look through and ongoing, so i dont imagine my interest'll wane anytime soon :]] !!

[itspileofgoodthings]

tags continued from prev post.

[hollow-vok]

Ohh im obssesed

[unproduciblesmackdown]

being alive at the time i gleaned some general elements abt encanto but never actually heard we don't talk about bruno beyond awareness it existed popping off & i think i heard like the title recited off key off rhythm but in a way that indicates speak singing nonetheless lol so upon experiencing it it's like oh but it's the Verses? while the last refrain goes harder but prior to that it's comparatively underwhelming to said verses which feels appropriate like verses / pieces of a larger picture & that a "we don't talk about him" as a disappointing Lid on infinitely richer more characterful & dynamic "but: talking about him" instances. like well personally it'd be like um seven foot frame....anyway besides being able to firsthand go like oh damn Real (the kind of thing you know exists if alive at the time) it's like alright hang on lol. one thing when a core theme is yeah like "is it a refuge if 'especial' vulnerability ultimately gets pushed out rather than made safer" subset like the parties whose even observation of truths (problems) & drawing attention to them is seen as Ruining Things, like if you're painted as Making futures that aren't simply what's desired or reassuring rather than a guidance via just observing & sharing the truth. but then it's like whaddaya mean living in fear of bruno stuttering and stumbling you could always hear him sort of muttering and mumbling lmao like now that's just Association between the Truth Perceiving & Telling behavior & behavior that's just apparently distinctive of the same person. & like Not Accidentally when [what if people were magic] specifics are obviously primarily abt a metaphorical meaning & like, indeed it was made clear like oh this situation isn't Just b/c [boo we hate your prophecies] & that [an Ability that isn't directed towards what anyone Wants / is "weird" even by these magic standards] isn't Coincidentally given to someone who just so happens to already be "weird" in other ways & be set up to have a different perspective & be pushed away due to having the supposed "extra" vulnerability of unmet needs / insufficient support, same as someone who doesn't "correctly" have any kind of magic ability....like yeah banger and also like Oh Yeah Kind Of Devastating re: that metaphorical resonance allowing for like [set the metaphor aside] now hang on with this about this disabled family member lol. misinterpretation to The Ruinerrr / The Problemmm / The Maliciousss etc (i.e. the scapegoatinggg) despite their efforts likely entirely to the contrary. then despite like, efforts aside, Just Existing, always kind of muttering & mumbling like & what of it. & then like oh sorry weird pets. weird [auspicious for adaptable tenacious thriving surviving; either way simply creatures, existing] pets.

truly like As Is The Idea I'm Sure quickly becomes like hands behind back standing at the window Uh Oh Sisters musing on all the [disabled person] metaphorical & already literal elements there. blair witching it in contemplation like We've All Been There whether being so resented for the mere disruption of "existing in a group as the 'abnormal' odd one out" or like people talking shit abt anything associated w/you as soon as you've left the room, which is also made relevant like, this wasn't Only directed at this person when seemingly permanently gone, nor were they unaware / unaffected prior....pacing in the Musing parlor like things don't Have to be compared to billions but i only ever even see so many things & it's like billions sure is like "get scapegoated rword" & then said scapegoating is presented as only beneficial & we hate autists & even beyond that it's like, grabbing billions, Imagine If Things Meant To Be About Something Were About Something. quite a contrast when they are & furthermore like, deliberate thought & Care for [who gets scapegoated & why] & the truth of like, people getting pushed aside & out who have a key perspective & are primed / liable to come through for others similarly vulnerable & the supposedly Ruinous, Problems Generating disruptiveness is actually the strongest effort to make essential changes to a group. & come through with like, it'd be undermining thee point if it was "reassuring" us like oh haha people will be supportive b/c bruno will be more normal, so great that it Didn't like no, no Normality Reassurance(tm), presence of abnormalities(tm), Good, & everyone Can Deal b/c if you don't then it's pushing this person away, is exactly what happens, including even if they're still Around but are being mistreated b/c that is entirely part of that pushing away like anyone's victim blaming is ready to pounce at any time but if someone can't stand to stay / leaves b/c they can't see another option like that's not out of nowhere nor Regardless of what full support & flexibility they were getting lol. these Active Measures everyone loves so much, which are everywhere always & would include Staying & Trying To Make It Work & those efforts would be "disruptive" & resented & Bringing It On Oneself & etccc smh

that is to all say like. Woww when clearly basically the core thread was these beats of like, the crucial site of [thee scapegoated], & why that comes down on someone & how that plays out. endless ideas about how someone weird(tm) & disabled (&/or queer. but there's no Or here lol. & again like it's a Context like, to even be the one person without kids? likely not living up to "full" correct sexuality in that way alone; any oppression's logics of "inferiority" being logics of ableism, ready examples being that "inferior" race, gender, sexuality (& their experiences as people classed as inferior) all being pathologized as disordered) are seen & treated as someone Ruining Things & who cannot belong like whew. bracing. winding. which, i also recall like i was watching with headphones & during this one dialogue pause i was like "?? what's this Extra Sound i heard there" & had to go over it like twice before being hit upside the head like well it Was still the dialogue pause but it was also bruno Stuttering in a very quiet whisper for the duration of that pause before continuing like iiiiiiii x_x

[dan-crimes]

In reference to my last post, not to be a DOWNER or anything but the way my brain works is it focuses on bad memories like here and there I'll look back and be like Yeah there were some fun times I had but just KNOW you wouldn't ever wanna go back to THAT because of This and That and That and THIS which I have no issue with cuz it would be impossible for me to go back to that anyway lmao

It works both ways tho my bad memories also get attacked by positive ones we find a balance <3

[memories-break-our-fall]

hey I don’t like being a smart gifted kid anymore. can I please be normal I’d much prefer that

[daz4i]

"nobody loves me like you do, but, i gotta love me too" gives me psychic damage every time

[hearthomelesbian]

just finished pl pandoras box for the first time i think flora should get to kill level5